SOOO Excited!

Good morning. I have been up bright and early this morning with no signs of stopping until about 9-10 tonight. Soooo, I took the plunge and called the REACH Clinic (Reproductive Endocrinology Associates of Charlotte). I just felt like we were spinning our wheels at the OB's office, and while I have a ton of respect for my doctor (he is who discovered my niece's heart and chromosomal defects), I realized I would not be his first patient to seek additional help without his referral. After explaining to his nurse my complete respect for him, but I just FEEL I need more help than what an OB's office can provide; she informed me that he would gladly have me back after I was pregnant (God willing). I felt like I was breaking up with my OB.

So before I called his office and spoke to his nurse, I called REACH to find out if I needed a referral, if they accept my insurance, and how far out they are booking appointments. No, I don't need a referral, yes they accept my insurance, and they have appointments in November. So the receptionist put me through to the New Patient Appointment scheduler, and didn't hear back from her on Wednesday. So, I called first thing yesterday morning; finally got her on the phone and told her:
WE ARE SO READY!
She said "How ready?"
I said "What do you have available?"
She said "Tomorrow morning at 10:30, we had a cancellation."
I said "Schedule it."

So yes, I am on my way to the REACH Clinic this morning. It all fell into line so perfectly. I cannot wait to have a "plan" of my own and to get answers. Oh, how nice answers will be. Please pray for us on this new part of our journey.

Can't Think of a Title for this One

On my drive to work this morning I did a lot of thinking, which led to tears, which then led to happiness. You see, I have started this habit over the last 3 weeks of listening to Selah while driving to work. Yes, I have my favorites which are on "repeat," but I find this is some of the most soul-calming, praise-hands worthy, drop-you-to-your-knees-in-praise music I have ever heard. I have some of the best moments of my day during my drive to work.

My thought process this morning: its been almost 5 months since "June;" 3 months of "trying" AGAIN; progesterone levels over the last 3 months are not ideal; an HSG test accompanied with a curved organ that needed "straightening (OUCH!);" a negative pregnancy test this morning even though I thought I recognized some of my former pregnancy symptoms; it seems like a dream that I was ever pregnant, like it never really happened to us, like a bad dream that had such a sweet, precious beginning; December is quickly approaching, which means my due date is that much closer, and lastly God, where are You?

WOW!! God, where are You? Seriously, Mary let's get some things straight. Pregnancy is not a right just bc I am a woman. I am not broken and I am not inadequate as a woman, which are feelings that I have. God blesses us in life and one of God's blessings is the blessing of children and their sweet, loud noises that fill our homes. My God is merciful and He is faithful, and He will bless us with children, one day, in His time, not MINE. So I will continue to praise God for all He has blessed me with, PRAISE Him that I had such a short, sweet time with our little one, and remember that He chose me to be with that sweet life for a short time. Thank you God, as You have never left me and have always been and will be right here holding me on this journey. So God, I am going to continue following doctor's orders, but I know its all in Your time and I trust in You.

By the way, if you have never listened to "Wonderful, Merciful Savior" by Selah, I suggest you do so. Have a fantastic day!!

Updating

I have to be honest, since the below post called "Tired" that's exactly what I have been. I have deliberately stayed off of the blogs, and from updating my blog bc, quite honestly, I just needed a break. Today I had an HSG, or hysterosalpingogram, at CMC Pineville. For me, it was just another day of going through the motions on this journey. Since "Tired" I have checked out, but I think its a good thing, and healthy for me. That's all for now.

"Those Girls" Do DC

Over the weekend, a group of my sorority sisters set out on a roadtrip to DC. What's in DC, you may ask?? Only one of the best, most classy lady EVER...Lindsay! Linds had no clue we were coming to visit her. When we walked up, she was unloading groceries and just stared at us through the back of her car window. On Saturday, we did a drive-by of the monuments and enjoyed some shopping in Georgetown. Georgetown...hmmm, sounds like a trip to Georgetown Cupcakes was in store. Not quite, as I have posted a picture of the line outside the shop. Instead, we tried a cupcake shop called Baked and Wired. I like it much better than Georgetown Cupcake and will go back when I visit Linds and Jamie in the spring. You will see Linds and her fiance, Jamie, on this blog again, as they are getting married in Blowing Rock next weekend.

Chicago

Charlie went to work in Chicago from 9/2-9/12/2010, and one of the perks to his travel is that I get to visit these amazing cities on occasion. My MIL, Fran, flew up with me bc she wanted to see Chicago and since Charlie was working during the day, she would be my shopping buddy/site see'er. So I have posted some pics below from our Chicago journey.